In all honesty, I haven't lost much weight with Paleo this time around. I'm not sure where the gaps are in my process but it's probably somewhere in here:
- too many 4 oz glasses of wine
- too much fruit
- not enough protein
- not enough carbs
- too many paleo treats
- not enough cardio
- too much stress
The great news is that my workouts have been feeling amazing. In doing all 3 Lurong Living Paleo Challenge workouts, I felt really great and even surpassed the goals I had made for myself. It's really a strange feeling for me-- to not be last. To feel strong. In fact, there are times when I approach my loaded barbell and try to mentally prepare myself to lift it, only to pick it up and realize it's a lot lighter than I'm used to. Or, maybe I need to rephrase that--- only to pick it up and realize that I am a lot stronger than I used to be! When a 95 pound clean and jerk feels relatively easy at the end of a workout, I'm learning that I need to let go of my preconceived ideas are of what I can do. I see my body and am unimpressed. I honestly see a fluffy body that needs a lot of work, but what I'm learning is that in addition to fluff, I have a lot of strength and muscle that I need to celebrate and push harder.
I need to shift a bit so that the big focuses on this Paleo Project for myself are not just in losing weight, but in working on accepting my body for what it is, how it looks, and also pushing it to perform better. I need to stop thinking about what the scale says and focus on my performance. Fluff loss will come while I'm busy focusing on clean, healthy, whole foods and working out at a higher intensity, pushing myself to lift more and work harder than my mind thinks I can.
The only limits are the ones I have placed on myself.
And those limits are going to be changing.
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